Life in Germany Media

Freelancer Burnout

As someone who lives in Europe but writes exclusively in English, I cherish the networks I’m able to build online. One of the smartest moves I’ve made in the last year was to join the StudyHallXYZ community of freelance writers and media professionals. It’s full of many wise and supportive people who are leading discussions on the state of the media today and their posts often make me think harder and deeper about the stories we tell.

The debates about how women and non-white writers and reporters are treated going on both online and within private communities are especially important, a guidepost showing what we need to change if we are to survive as a society that honors every person within it. Yet these debates can be exhausting, especially when they’re occurring within newsrooms that reflect the issues within the greater society.

So I wrote a bit for StudyHallXYZ about my experience with burnout — something which I experienced as a result of the greater issues in Germany, where life is exponentially more difficult for people who are not born in the country, into the middle-class, or are educated here. Although it’s paywalled for members-only, here’s an excerpt. If you’d like to read more, send me an email.


Amazing Women: Arlene Gottfried

Arlene Gottfried, Angel and Woman Brighton, 1976. Courtesy of the artist

“For me, it was natural to go out of the house, to be out. So when I got a camera, I went out with my camera. When I shoot, it’s mostly something about the way a person is, or who they are, what they’re doing, it could be anything that’s attractive to me. Why people? I don’t really know.”

I wrote about how interviewing the photographer Arlene Gottfried for Sleek Magazine inspired me more than I ever expected over on Transatlantic Mode. I adore her work and am in awe of how much she accomplished in spite of the sexism of advertising and photography during her time in New York.

Media Freedom Writing

Media freedom in Kurdistan

I grew up in a time and place when freedom of expression was a given — which is why witnessing the increasing threat to media freedom in Europe and around the world has been so difficult to grasp. For the last several months, I’ve had the privilege of working on the DW Freedom project, a desk at Germany’s international broadcaster dedicated to highlighting press rights violations and the cases of journalists who have been arrested, imprisoned, or murdered for their investigative work. It’s been an honor to speak with journalists who’ve risked their lives for their work and to see how they’ve carried on in their work despite the dangers their critical reporting. From one of those recent interviews, with Kurdish journalist, Kamal Chomani, I learned more about the role that the English-language media plays and how easily story perspectives can be shifted by parachute journalists:

There are so many people who write in Kurdish. But when you write in English — because there are very very few writing in English — and you write critically, it puts your life at greater risk. They have completely controlled the English media. They have spent a lot on advertising, given a lot of cash to foreign journalists or academics who write about them very well. Especially after 2003, there was this advertising propaganda that said there is this other Iraq where democracy is booming.


For your viewing pleasure: my speech on online harassment from the Media Convention Berlin 2019 ‘Dick Pics & Death Threats’

In case you missed me speaking about the threats that women journalists face online at the Media Convention Berlin last month, here’s your chance to make up for it. I was honored to speak to Der Spiegel ahead of the event and to see they’d recommended my workshop for visitors to re:publica. I was in such remarkable company, with several workshops dedicated to dealing with the threats and online harassment women are experiencing. If you’ve got 30 minutes, here’s a great overview of something I’ll be covering for the next several months.


Anabel Hernandez at the Global Media Forum

After writing a feature on Anabel Hernandez’s reporting on corruption and drug cartels in Mexico — and the role that Europe and the US plays in the thousands of murders in Latin America that is driving migration and displacement — it was an honor to hear Hernandez speak in person at this year’s Global Media Forum. In creating a short profile of her work and reporting out the unique threats that journalists in Mexico face (it is, in 2019, the most dangerous country not at war for journalists), I learned what true courage is. Here’s an excerpt from her speech accepting the award; you can read it in its entirety at the DW Freedom page, where I’m a contributing editor.

“The killings of journalists are increasing all over the world. Journalists live in the most violent time in recent history, thus affecting society’s human right to be timely and truthfully informed. Each journalist killed means repercussions on hundreds of people who remain silent in the face of violence.

But why are they killing us? Why are they threatening us? Why are they imprisoning us? Why do they want to silence us?

The world is living in dark times in all respects, in all spheres. Where we look, everything is confusing, there is no clarity, there is no transparency, there is no accountability. Frontiers are becoming blurred, economic models no longer really differ from one another. The distances between left, center and right are shrinking.

In so many countries of the world, the same thing seems to be happening, putting democracy at great risk and the freedoms that to achieve have cost us so many sacrifices.”

Art Culture Events

The Alphabet of Keith Haring

My first summer in New York, Keith Haring’s yellow men seemed to be everywhere I went, especially on the Lower East Side and in Soho, where I spent most days. I hadn’t understood their appeal nor their meaning. At 19, I didn’t understand why this was considered such influential art. I was hanging out with club kids and skaters and street artists and I knew his work was important to them but I would never know why.

Twenty years later, I looked into Haring further, just ahead of an exhibition at the Albertina in Vienna and found a deeper meaning in his work than I could ever have read into back in the mid-90s, shortly after the artist’s death.

Perhaps most memorable of his figures were the yellow-colored outlines of people in movement, their arms and legs turned outward or raised to the sky in what looks like break dancing. These dancing characters appear over and over again in drawings, as do variations on a spiky-headed dog, a symbol that some considered Haring’s street tag, or signature.

Always interested in social activism, Haring turned a critical eye to subjects that were on everyone’s minds in the 1980s: apartheid in South Africa, the Cold War and the military-industrial complex, HIV/AIDS, LGBTQ rights. Although his drawings included no words to reflect his political beliefs, the symbolism Haring employed made transparent his feelings about the subjects: dollar signs representing the greed of the go-go decade or mushroom clouds reflecting the artist’s feelings toward nuclear disarmament. These overtly political statements helped the artist garner invitations to create work in cities across Europe, including a mural on the Berlin Wall.

Both a review of the astounding exhibition in Vienna and a glimpse at Haring’s biography, my response is over at Deutsche Welle’s culture page. What I didn’t get to mention — something I’d love to look into further in future — is how great a role fashion and the fashion industry has played in memorializing Haring’s work. And the way that his drawings appearing on accessories has made his art more accessible to the masses.

Book reviews Culture Writing

On Swearing (and Why Germans Love the F Word)

Perhaps one of the most shocking things about globalization has been how widely spread English swear words have become. The words that were banned from my mouth as a child are not censored out on the radio in Germany and as American culture infiltrates everything, they’ve made their way into the average German’s mouth without much appreciation of their meaning. I’ve always wondered why a billboard or advertising campaign here could use a curse without anyone blinking an eye. How in the world could a movie franchise include the F word in its title — albeit one intentionally mis-spelled as Fack — and be a hit? And what does that say about the people who keep that word in their mouth without recognizing its emotional impact? Am I prude for thinking I can keep it in my vocabulary (said under my breath, in the privacy of my home) while German school kids toss it around without thinking twice?

After a European office decided that even in its grammatically incorrect form, Fack Ju Goethe is a vulgar turn of phrase that cannot be trademarked, I talked to an expert on swearing, the scientist Emma Byrne, and found out *so many* interesting things about our perception of curses.

It depends on so many things — your age, gender, the culture that you grew up in. You internalize different taboos. In British English, blasphemy is hardly considered offensive any more unless you’re in your 60s and older. At the same time, for people in their 60s and above, things like the N-word aren’t anywhere near as offensive as people my age and younger consider them to be. So there is no universal standard of swearing; each and every person responds to swearing in a way that’s entirely determined by their upbringing.

Her book, “Swearing is Good for You: The Amazing Science of Bad Language” is now out in the US and it is an absolute gem. Get your hands on it if you can and learn more about why we bi-linguals revert to our native tongue to curse people out.

Book reviews Culture

On Roxane Gay’s “Hunger”

Hunger: A Memoir of (My) BodyHunger: A Memoir of (My) Body by Roxane Gay
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I loved this book. The very brief chapters, all focused on one particular aspect of the writer’s life and her relationship to her body, her weight, food, family and how they intertwine was a brilliant format for our attention-deprived age. Gay’s honesty, her concision, and her deftness at deciding which parts of her story she wants to tell — her control over the narrative — is a masterpiece for memoirists to model their own work on. More, please!

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Culture Writing


The ways museums have tried to increase their visibility and use social media to their advantage in recent years is endlessly fascinating to me. One of the most original — and effective — global campaigns I’ve seen yet is the #MuseumSelfie so I wrote about it briefly on January 17 (now officially Museum Selfie Day):

What that selfie should look like is entirely up to the photographer; it can be a shot of a museum ticket stub, include artworks or dinosaur bones or shiny automobiles in the background, or show a person standing outside the museum’s entrance. The only caveat is to leave the selfie stick at home, as many museums have banned the device out of fear that they will disturb other visitors or might damage works of art.

The campaign also had me sorting through old photos in search of my very own #Museumselfie. I don’t have many — usually I’m too busy looking at the are. But I found this, a bleak and more somber image than most, but here I am at the El-De Haus in my hometown of Cologne, snapping myself in the midst of the memorial to those executed by the Gestapo in the courtyard of the former Gestapo headquarters. It’s bleak, I know. The memorial, though, was new at the time and it’s important for museums to pay homage to both the beauty in art and the ugliness in reality.

Culture Writing

Achtung Baby: On German parenting

I’ve been waiting for years for someone to write about the German laissez faire style of parenting, and finally, Sara Zaske has. I got my hands on Achtung Baby: An American Mom on the German Art of Raising Self-Reliant Children and reviewed it for The Cut.

Ever since journalist Pamela Druckerman’s Bringing Up Bébéhit the best-seller list by telling American moms and dads to stop hiring sitters and just take their toddlers along to fancy restaurants like Parisians do, a rush of cultural anthropology has taken over the parenting-advice industry. It seems like everyone all over the world has ideas on how to be a better parent and the general consensus is “parenting: Americans do it wrong.”

The latest in this series comes out of Germany, my adopted homeland …

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